Dear Adriana,
Today in Relief Society We talked about the creation of the earth, and how amazing it is. When the lesson first started out with the question, "Why do you think we were so exited to come here to earth?" I quickly responded with an "I have NO idea!" "Knowing all the stuff we would have to go thru while we were here, I would have rather stayed." Then everyone else seemed to have good reasons why we were wanting to come here to earth and receive a body and go thru a test. One reason that stood out to me is that in Heaven we were at the top, basically that we could not gain any thing else to make us better, that we needed to come here to go thru things that were hard to help us to grow spiritually. That definately made sense to me. Then there were comments as to how amazing the birth of a child is and then of course the topic of death came up. Normally I am fine talking about it, but for some reason because it was talked about so close to how amazing the birth of a child was, made me think about how we experienced your Birth and Death at the same time, and that made me very sad and I was thinking about you. I have a really hard time crying in front of people, I don't like it, and even though I tried to hold it back as much as I could, I just couldn't. We also talked about how when people die, they don't go alone. Family is there with them to take them back thru the veil. Your time with us was so short baby girl, and I knew you well even though our eyes never met, I still knew you. I knew the things you liked and did not like, I wish I could have had you here with us longer. I miss you so much and want you to be in my arms so I can snuggle and kiss you. I want to see if your hair would have turned out to be curly like your big sisters, or if you would have been the first to have straight hair. Your sisters and Daddy miss you so very much to, they talk about you all the time, I hope you can hear it. Daddy visited you the other day at your grave and I wish I could have been there. I will go see you on Friday when I am at the Doctor's checking on your baby brother, I promise. I hope you are watching over him and keeping him safe. I Love you so much sweet baby. I hope you know that.
Love,
Mommy