Dear Adriana,
I just wanted to write to you because I miss you so much and wanted to talk to you. Your baby brother was born 6 weeks ago! But I am sure you already knew that! :) I bet you were there when he was born werent you? I love and miss you so much and as I watch and hold and snuggle Austin, I get really sad that I do not get to do any of these things with you. The other day I was talking to your brother and I looked at him and said, "Did you see Adriana in Heaven?" And he gave me a big grin, so that mad me really happy and I said "You did!???". I wonder what kinds of things you told him before he came here. I wonder if you told him to be really good for Mommy because I deserved it? :) he is such a good baby, so it does make me wonder what you told him! Yesterday I was holding Austin on my rocking chair and looked down at him and noticed how much he looked like you at that angle, the same hairline, forehead and little nose and mouth! I looked up at the pictures of you on the wall and compared. Yep! Looked just like you! Mommy misses you so much and I wish you were here. I know you are in my heart, but I want you to be in my arms also. Last Month at Target I was leaving the store and saw a little girl who had the same shade of red hair as you, she was about 1 year old, the same age you would be if you were still here. She was so stinkin cute and I had a strong desire to just go and hold her. But of course that would have been weird for her family if I asked to do that so I just walked on smiling at her on my way out. I have to admit that there have been a few times when I have been bymyself and holding Austin, I would imagine for a moment it was you, just so I could pretend I was holding you all warm and snuggly and pretend you were still alive for a moment. It was nice and emotional. I am so glad you are safe in heaven with your Heavenly Father. I know he will take the best care of you until I get you back and can raise you with your Daddy and sisters. At least I know that you are ok. I always tell Aliya when she misses her pets that have died, that you are probably taking care of them for her. That makes her so happy! She talks about you alot and always askes what you would probably be doing if you were still here with us, would you be sitting up, or eating real food? today in the car she mentioned that if you were here, she would have to sit in the very back seat because there would be 4 of you guys! Then I see Aliya's little face get sad. She told me today that she misses you really bad. Oh man, your two sisters would have just loved you so much! I know they would have taken such good care of you! So would I. I just wanted to write you tonight. I will talk to you soon. Love you baby girl.
Love,
Mommy